Monday, June 25, 2012


When the Kelly & I saw the Dr. at week 17 she asked us what we were wanting. Both Kelly and I had said that we really didn’t care that we just wanted a healthy baby. I really did mean it too. Even if I was forced to choose I really couldn’t decide. I mean there is so much cute stuff for a girl, but me being female thinks that would be so fun to shop for, but the practical person that I am, I know that a girl would be detrimental to my budgeting. I also know that boys are much lower maintenance and one look at a girl and Kelly will buy her a pony.

So when Tiffany said she was pretty certain it was a girl I didn't even know how to react. I think Kelly was in shock for the next hour. Lindsey our Dr. did lovingly cry as she walked out of the room, "ponies for everyone!"

Kelly and I have gotten in to the tradition of going out to eat after the appointments to celebrate. We choose to go to Green House Grill on our week 17 meal.. OH MY GOODNESS it is so good, if you haven't been there then go. If the drive to Fville seems like a lifetime away like it does for me, then go to the one they have on the Bentonville square. The veggie burger is to die for.

We of course called all of our family right away to let them know, but we placed a warning that we wouldn't be 100% until our 20 week.
This did not stop Steve Pangle...

So last week when we went for 20 weeks we did in fact confirm that the sweet banana (fruit related to the pregnancy books) I am carrying is a girl. Which promptly lead to an argument in Belk’s as Kelly was determined to purchase her a pink seersucker dress. Why you may ask would I argue with this, well the dress was a 5T.Kelly could not understand why I would pass up such a great deal. "babe, it is only $15 and it is polo..." No telling if by the time she is able to wear it if it will even be in season. He finally realizes I have an understanding of these baby things and gave up the dress purchase... for now.

But I have now unleashed the baby shopping.. watch out.

Completely impractical but the cutest thing you have ever seen! I have vowed after this purchase I will only be practical things....

I can not say the same for my sweet Kaylee.

I have also started working on the nursery and the colors. After seeing a pin on pintrest (what did we do before pintrest?) I fell in love with navy and teal it feels classic, clean and not super baby room. I also was able to get Kelly to agree to those 2 colors with non hesitation. I also want to incorporate a little bit of pink..

This is what I planning on using for her quilt.

the random item in the middle is her first dress.. searsucker for Kelly.... not polo, but made with love!

Now for the Name.... After MUCH debate we have settled on a name we both like.
Julianna Mae Carlson

Kelly held strong with Lucy for about 3 weeks, and Kurt really pulled for Carlie, and I had a brief love with all things gender neutral like Payton or Sawyer, but Kelly wanted it to be feminine. Leading to our final decision of Julianna Mae Carlson.  Now... bring on the MONOGRAMING!


Saturday, June 23, 2012

passing out prayers

I never realized how much stuff you needed to know about having a baby.

I also never realized how many people will ask you, "How are you Feeling?"

Do not get me wrong I enjoy that people care enough to ask me how I am feeling, but I think the standard fine bores them and they would much rather hear stories. In my case though my neurotic tendencies coupled with the drama that has been my life lately leaves room for plenty of stories.

Let’s start with my Mema (mom's Mom). A few months ago she developed a growth on her arm. A growth that was so large that the Dr. decided to remove it prior to knowing exactly what was wrong due to the fact they were concerned it would break her arm if it was grow any more. After several weeks of waiting and praying it was determined the primary source was lung cancer.

Next up my Grandma (dad's mom). Around the same time that we learned of my Mema's cancer my other grandma developed shingles. She was in a lot of pain and on some strong antibiotics. Something caused her to become very sick and pass out hitting her head and knocking herself unconscious. I received the call that she was still unconscious and on the way to the hospital with a very low heart rate. I spent the afternoon in the hospital waiting for her to wake up. When she finally did the Dr. told us that she was now quarantined. AWESOME. Please let the OCD and slightly hyper sensitive pregnant women know that she may have some super serious disease prior to her spending the last several hours in ICU.

After talking to the Dr. they recommended I stay away until they determine what exactly is wrong.

After several weeks it was determined Mema's lung cancer was not as big as they had originally feared and they had a very positive outlook.

Grandma was released from the hospital with 2 broken ankles, a diagnosis of C-Diff and some other stomach virus.

Just when I felt better about the health of my grandma's my mom called to let me know she had pneumonia. Goodness gracious... I just need the women in my family to stay well! After a couple of weeks of battling it she still wasn't any better, so last week she went to the Dr. and they required a biopsy of her lung. They think it could be 3 things... Lung Cancer, Tuberculosis, or some type of fungal infection. Which none of those are good and none of those are something I can be around.

I am trying to remain positive about all things, but it is difficult. I am continuing to pray and leave it up to God, but much like the baby... I really wish I could control some piece of the outcome. Please continue to keep them and my sweet baby in your prayers.